Last week we escaped into the undisturbed energies of Limekiln State Park where no electromagnetic waves are allowed.
The night of solstice, the kids and I performed grid work at the beach there. We brought with us stones we had selected and worked with beforehand. Ashton buried his in the sands. Bailey gave hers to a group of girls camping there - explaining that it was intended to connect with the grid above and below. My stone found it's way into the creek after playing with me throughout the week.
Bailey demonstrating a treasure from the seas as a crown.
I had a wonderful time with Seth. It's been a long time since I've been camping with another adult who is so helpful. Here we all are hiking out of the LimeKilns.
After Limekiln, we headed 5 hours south to meet up with Colton, Nikki & their friend Brad who just happened to be there for a Vidcon convention. Always perfect timing.
I also got to meet Seth's sister, Annette, who was adopted at birth and who found her long lost family only 2 years ago.
She looks just like Seth's sister, Ally, who we stayed with that night. I didn't get a pic though:(
Here we are at Venice Beach. It was soooo much fun getting thrashed by the waves at this Beach. I'm soaking wet here and out of breath but I think it looks pretty good on me.
Seth's daughter, Madison, had surgery on Monday following our return. It has brought up so many emotions for me that I am trying to process. He wanted me to touch and get close to her and it's hard. She has no consciousness of me - it does not matter to her that I am there - there is no quality of life there. It's really really hard for me to accept and part of me is so angry about it and I think I always will be.
I realize now why Seth rarely wants to make love with me. It is breaking my heart and I cry when I think about it. I try to keep myself busy with work and look at the upset when I can. Really really really trying to ground it into the earth and connect to source when I do look at it. I can feel that I block the light around this issue. It feels like a bubble around us. I know I can get through it, and I don't want to involve Seth with it. He's already been through so much.
I need to figure out how to move through not having sex with a man that I'm in love with. How do you do that? How does that work? I'm asking the highest vibrational beings to guide me through this as I connect more fully with my very own highest vibrational frequency. I love you, Nicole. I know it's hard. I know how hard it is for you. It is not what it appears. You are in full complete union at the highest vibration. Know this. And Connect.
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